boring person

can anyone be more sway than me?!

2009-08-18T01:37:00.000-07:00

now i have something to kpkb.

Yesterday, was out with Buta, and it happened when i was chit chatting with her, outside cineleisure, the area where people smoke, don't ask me why, but we stood there and chat. =.= the wind was blowing, "hen liang". waiting for dajie's reply also la. We're really happily gossiping talking yakking non-stop, from about 10pm to about 1030 i think, then suddenly, this IDIOT, sat behind Buta, and started smoking, and then i was sitting in the direction against the wind, facing buta, and that IDIOT is sitting behind her, smoking in the direction of the wind, WHO WILL EXPECT, within seconds, i felt a sharp pain in my eye, something flew in, i donnoe what went in, but it hurt like hell when i blink,

tried to tear as much as i can to wash it out, but it didnt work,
went toilet to use water to wash out, but it didnt work,
bought eye drops, instill so much and STILL it didnt work.

worst nightmare. it's like at that timing, there's no doctors, no optometrist anymore.
SGH i went. i can't even close my eye. Whenever i shut my lids, the sharp poking effect came.
knowing nuts what went in, i went to AnE of SGH, and then you know what? i have to wait. such a pain in the ASS. Its already ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY, and i still have to wait soooooooo long. When i got into the doc's room, the doc was like "wo shi huang yi shen" WHO CARES IF YOURE "HONG YI SHEN OR LAN YI SHEN"?! in mandarin somemore?! and he's reaction goes something like this :- "i cant do anything about this" and asked the nurse to drain saline solution into my eye and see if that SHIT will be washed off.

THEN i waited again.

The nurse, then called my name, holding onto 2 bottles of 1L saline solution, i totally freaked out, cause i don even dare to instill eye drops, that kind of phobia shit. so dumb i know, but I DON HAVE A CHOICE, but to see that saline solution run non-stop, till the nurse actually used up 1/2 of the bottle. AFTER LIKE SO LONG, that shit is still there! SCREW THAT IDIOT. Can anyone be more sway than me? it hurts big time i swear.

Then WAIT for the doctor again, he then check of the SHIT, and told me he would have to refer me to the specialist. He said "the optometrist will then, SCRAPE the particle out with a NEEDLE." HELLLO?!??!?!?!?! i almost died.

Then WAIT for the optometrist, there's like 3 cases ahead of me waiting for him, can anyone else be more sway? WAIT AGAIN.

Got in, he's damn calm, and checked my eye and all, and then he did his thing.
Drip eye drops which numbs the eye.
Under his microscope, he did what he need to do get that SHIT out.
Needle out, scrape. Then cotton bud, dap that shit out.
Fast process i shall say. But can u imagine the feeling when you hear, "SCRAPE the particle out with a NEEDLE" and HELLO its on the EYE?! I'm so glad that it's out.

It's damn dramatic. He said, that particle actually had an abrasion with my eye, and there would be a slight scar on the eye, and will feel slight pain after the numbness subside.

ALL BECAUSE OF YOU ASS! SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE. TURBAN. I HAVE TO SPEND LIKE $100 PLUS ALL IN ALL and ALL THE PAIN TO GET OUT YOUR DISGUSTING ASH IN MY EYE! DAMN IT! I WILL NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER GONNA BE SITTING/STANDING NEXT TO OR NEAR ANY ONE WHO SMOKES.

DAMN SWAY I TELL YOU.

SHIT REALLY DOES HAPPENS.

AND IT'S ALWAYS ME.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD BONG!

2009-06-28T10:45:00.000-07:00

ages since i update la. but today got sth to blog therefore this post.
so happy today!!! MET UP WITH ALMOST ALL OF THEM.

HAPPY

HAPPY

HAPPY.

catch up abit. to celebrat bong's belated. but then wasn't enough for me =( feels so sad that the day just ended like that! and i was kinda shy to give bong the stupid notebook i made for her. VERY UGLY. Like loser. anyway, the reason why - notebook, was because, she has too many blue fellas in her room! and she's already 22! and this year, i decided to leave him out. Therefore, the loser notebook, i don't know what bong need - LOSER FRIEND I AM I KNOW. but then i feel what ever she need, she can get it on her own! so i don't wanna buy something then, she herself also can get it. Therefore, DIY spark me LOL. Thats why made that notebook with her big name. I FORGOT SHE NAMED HERSELF CHLOE. should have put Chloe lor. haha. Chloe sia, so woman ah bong?! Had loads of fun. And first time AH ROO DROVE ME! haha. DAMN LOSER ME. I AM GOING TO START MY LESSONS! i wanna drive them one day! Got car i sure can dig bong out. LOL! She like so excited abt the blue fella instant mini! I feel happy when i see her happy. really. SHE HAPPY I HAPPY. well oh well, thou we only hung out for like 5 to 6 hours. i even enjoyed the ride home in roo's car. The time we spent together now seemed so precious. How i wished we can turn back time!

I MISS MY 6 BELOVED SISTERS.

XOXO

2009-01-13T22:29:00.000-08:00

KONICHIWA!!!!!

haven been updating for quite some time now. 1st entry for 2009! LOL. cui desu. Oh well. Have been really busy at the moment for the stupid training. VERY TIRED!! =( ANd today, my long awaited off day. Tmrw gotto report back to work already. Through out this 2-3 weeks of training, i;ve got to know really fabulous people. They rock my life. And i really thank god for giving me such a perfect bud for me. I'm feel so blessed that i;ve met her. She's of the same built and i feel she's almost = me! She feels like my sister! DEAR DANIEL + PAUL ONEHILL. LOL! And also another BUTT, she helped me improve my japanese. She rocks in jap man. SO GLAD TO HAVE her also lor! AND WE BOTH LOVED CHARMMY KITTY! SANRIO LAND!! HERE WE COME!!

Some of the less cui desu pictures

Part of the class.

paul onehill and me

our japanese names!

and our japanese teacher is damn KAWAII. LOL he's kinda old. and still cant believe it that he's an ex cabin crew!! LOL. oh well. am looking forward to TOKYO! DISNEY LAND. POWER SNACKS. SANRIO LAND!!!!!!!!!! I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

13 January.
MET UP WITH BONG.VERY HAPPY TO SEE THE BONG AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME. We went for dinner at crystal jade YET AGAIN. but previous time with my colleages. To tell her how great the yang chow chao fan was there. And she ended up treating me. THANKS BONG. HENG also. Else im an broke ass now. Cause we ended up at ZARA to clear their stock. good buys! i bought a satin full jumper and a satin pants for work! 39.90 each only! happy bong. should have cam whore abit. now don have pics to show =( Oh well. She's nice enough to accomapany me continue qi pao hunting! and i'm so glad i finally found the right one @ 10pm. *i was already in town @ 8 am for my US VISA Interview. can you believe it? i've been in orchard the whole damn day ytd! the earlier part of the day was spent with my colleages. and we went qi pao hunting too, but the one i wanted, don have my size. =( sadness fills my heart. and the uncle is an asshole i tell you. He kept saying i cant fit an M size. I KNOW I KNOW. just let me try and see la!? don even wanna give me a chance keep KPKB. in the end Lynn bought. the m size. and i'm still not very happy with that, so i ask lynn to let me try on her buy. I CAN FIT OK! it's just that it's too fitting that there's creases at the back. BUT I CAN FIT UNCLE. I KNOW MY BODY MORE THAN YOU DO. "confirm cannot one" =.= __

the qi pao i bought. $20 BUCKS. WHAT A STEAL. I"M VERY CHEAPSKATE ONE.

It's halter kind. and ITS BLACK! NICEY DESU! And goes along well with my charles and keith 4 inch heels!

S$9 bucks only eh! SORRY DEAR DANIEL!

hahaha. good buys. my jumper also mou tat! VERY HAPPY LIPPIE!!! till here! OFF TO WATCH MY SHOWS! so many epis missed! MY LOVE BREAD AND GOSSIP GIRL! SAYOOONARA!

XOXO

CHRISTMAS

2008-12-21T00:11:00.001-08:00

long time no see.
Oh my. work's gonna start like next week. TUESDAY. not a very good christmas gift from you eh JAL. Second day of work would be xmas eve. talking about xmas eve, very saddening. i initially thought we will be having a meet out after you know ever since my birthday, to celebrate xmas like the previous years, i bought the gift which was supposed to be for gift exchange, that's the usual routine every xmas for us. Be it going out for dinner, or crashing at someone's place. The xmas gift exchange, is the usual routine. Happily bought the gift. it's really pretty thou. But sad to say, "bu nen pai shang yong chang". I asked roo, what's the budget this year, she was like huh? this year got plans meh? CUIlor. i happily thot that there's exchange this xmas and that we're going out this xmas. just texted ting to ask if there's plans and she said she has to help her mum out at shop. =( xmas = sian. and saw bong's blog, she so happy. claims that she's having lots of parties. Not too bad la. i still have one with my family. Oh well, but i really missed all of them. How i wished we're meeting this xmas.

Sadness fills my heart.
Alright xmas aside.

TING! i'm joining you for edward cullen soon! OMG. in hours, i'm about to indulge, in the world of edward cullen. HE"S FUCKING HOT. ELSE you think i'll support the book? NAH! lol. He's actually robert in real life. HE"S VERY HOT OMG.

I WANT A VAMPIRE AS MY GUY.
Not any idiotic blood sucking ones,
but A HOT VEGETARIAN ONE! OMG.

LOL he's really hot. i can't wait to read the book. I bought the books @ 30% off! OMG WHAT A STEAL LOL. It's ok, at least i have Edward Cullen with me this Xmas. SHAUN, DON'T CRY. LOL Till here!

GO COLLECT THE BOOKS AND SOME MHK WITH MY DAD.

XOXO

FUCKING FATHER

2008-11-28T22:17:00.001-08:00

FUCK OK! I only merely asked you to help me get some satay and otah since you said you will do so. THEN?! come back and say shit nonsense and all. FUCK OK. what no money, only have left 200 in your bank! WELL DONE! YOU DESERVE IT! FUCK!

IF YOU DON HAVE MONEY THEN DO NOT DO THE FOLLOWING!!
- HAVE SECOND WIFE
- CATER FOR 2ND FAMILY ( DID NOT EVEN CATER FOR MY POOR SIS WHO's ONLY PRI 2!)
- HAVE CAR
- QUIT A JOB AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE
- PAY FOR 2ND WIFE DAUGHTER - SCHOOL FEES, BOOKS, EVEN SOME BROADBAND SHIT!

STILL SAY NO MONEY?! WTF IS THIS!
COME ON LA. YOUR DAD IS A FUCKING EXAMPLE AND NOW YOU'RE FOLLOWING HIS FUCKING FOOTSTEPS. DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS GOT INTO YOU LEH. ALWAYS SAY MUM PUT BLACK MAGIC ON YOU. COME ON LA. IF PUT BLACK MAGIC STILL WILL BE SO NICE HELP YOU PAY OFF SO MUCH BILLS? MY MUM IS THE WORLD'S BEST WOMAN, AND ALSO AT THE SAME TIME THE MOST STUPID ONE! AND YOU SAY SHE PUT BLACK MAGIC ON YOU?!? WAKE UP LA! IT'S MA YEE YEE FOR GOD'S SAKE! FUCK MA YEE YEE! DAMN WHORE! DAMN BITCH! WHY NOT SHE JUST DIE! FUCKING CHEEBYEEE!!!!!!

HAPPY DAY!

2008-11-18T08:15:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

I'm so into blogging. HAHA. I;m really one happy fella today! Yesterday can't sleep. This afternoon, @ abt 2pm. The doctor called. Saying that i'm actually unfit for flying. !!!! And i requested for a second check up. THANK GOD, Doctor Victoria is in better mood today! She said that would be nice. YIPPIE! Thank god, second chance was given to me. *grins On and my dad fetched me there! The whole time, i was drying out my nose for like upteen times. I can;t let my doctor see the mucus in there! She don't like my stuffy nose! And when i was being called into the room, she checked and she said i cleared. YAY!! Best thing ever i tell you! SUCH A RELIEF! Oh and i spent the rest of the day with my dad. It has been ages, i have spent time with my dad. I miss his presence. I miss his everything. I really like the way we were today. Just me and him. We went for food, my treat, as promised, as i passed the medical. We chatted, talking about my house, the renting out of the rooms, the tenants, my birthday... everything under the sun. After eating, i asked him if he can just drop me by bugis to get some balloons, some partyware for my 21st, he agreeded and we went together. We shopped together. Seriously, at that moment, time seemed to have winded back to the olden days. When we're still one family. thou we're still one, but you know, my mum n my dad... yada. I really felt so blessed today to have spent the whole day with my dad. For that few hours, it was more than anything i've ever wished for. This year's birthday, i seriously am not looking forward to him to pay for anything or any gifts. I just wished he can turn back and come back to me. I loved him. For all his wrong doings, thou sometimes, i might get really angry with him, but deep down inside of me, i still loved him. Today, he was full of smiles, i haven seen that for like so so so long. I wished that he can smile everyday. Like today. He was happy that i treated him the meal. He wanted to go shop around bugis, looking for his "Tibet Shop", he said he has been looking for ages. I told him i knew, he smiled, he's happy that finally, he has located the shop which he has been hunting for. Stopped over for a while, he found the ring that he has been looking for so long. I do not know how to them into words. He's just so smiley today. It really warms me to see him smile.

I hope he can be happy.
I hope he can leave her.
I hope he can come back to me.
I hope one day i'm able to excel in my career, therefore clear off his debts.
I don't mind, for as long as he leave her.
I do not want to be helping him feed her.
I love him.
I want him back.
I need him to be home.
I want my dad back.

dad.me.sis

My family

I CAN'T SLEEP!!

2008-11-17T12:24:00.000-08:00

Fuck ok. I've been tossing and turning in bed for like 1 hour. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I'm just so fucking worried for my medical. For that 1 hour i think of:-
1. Medical can get thru anot?
2.Thurday's contract day, how it will be like.
3. Imagining myself in JAPAN with my new friend Cafren. (i hope i can be with her thru out the training days!! we settled on having to celebrate once both of us are successful! She got her email! I haven't got mine!) which is why i'm still here la.
4. Tomorrow. Email will come?
5. Wednesday. Email will come?
6. My birthday. food enough? money enough?
7. Medical - doctor for being so fierce. She said" i don't quite like your stuffy nose" WTF?!
8. Medical
9. Medical
10. Medical

WA LAU! CAN THE EMAIL COME FAST!! Very worrying! I hope she don't fail me just because i have stuffy nose on that day only! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! =( I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP IN ANY FUCKING WAY LA! Shall just sit and wait la. haiyo!

Something im happy. i finally purchased a bomber jacket from tokyo fashion!!!

and i bought zebra stripes dress and a denim vest!! VERY PREETTY! AND CHEAPY LIPPIE! And there goes my 50 bucks. hai. but i haven been shopping for quite some time. So i guess that should be ok? haha! I also can't wait for my extensions to arrive. I actually bought quite some stuff eh. all still on their way here to sg. OPI polishes, hair extensions, clothes... Retail theraphy just keeps my mind off from thinking of too many worrying stuff. My form of relaxation! VERY HAPPY I BUY SO MANY STUFF! HAHA!

Oh the flea was such a success! ALL THREE OF US left zouk happily! We're loaded! ZOUK FLEA rocks. We get to clear our unwanted stuff and get part of our money back! Nothing can get better than this. But quite a pity that zouk flea only happens like very rare. Heard that it only happens for 4 times a year! SO LITTLE! The crowd is good, the music is good, the environment is good. and the best of all, the money is good! Thanks to the flea, i now at least have the money to spend for my birthday. but still not really enough, but better than nothing! Nothing to really blog about la. Just that I CAN'T SLEEP THAT"S WHY I'M HERE?!

XOXO

Bomberman

2008-11-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

Hello!

I'm so in love with this jacket, or should i put it as BOMBER jackets they call it. JETBLACK! I saw 1 from F21, but abit pricey. I hope i get lots of ang bao frm my birthday lol. then i can get this jacket!!

picture credits to F21 of course!

The gold zippers. So rock. I know. But it's good to pair it off with leopard spots or zebra stripes printed tanks! I LIKE!! I actually saw some cheaper source from TE, but i'm afraid that the sleeves would be kinda short. Very annoying and ugly i tell you. Hate wearing jackets with sleeves so short. I envy small people. Oh back to the cheaper ones. Can easily get it for like less than $30 bucks frm taiwan sprees! But for sure, the quality is gonna suck big time. Put that aside. My capital now is only $20 bucks. I CAN SURVIVE ONE! till SUNDAY! I AM GOING TO MAKE BIG BUCKS! HAHAHAH! I can't wait for this sunday's flea! YES FLEA! and this time round, not selling WH stuff. Would be selling my pre-loved instead! This flea came at the correct timing, just as when i needed moolahs the most! HOHOHO! ZOUK flea rocks. The best time i can clear my pre-loved or even my new clothings! I packed and priced all of them already. This whole freaking week, i'm practically rotting my youth away. What to do?! i'm a broke asshole. Can't wait for sunday seriously. SUNDAY COME SOON! After which with the money, i can go order my birthday stuffs. Subway cookies if possible, for my "THANK YOU" Gift. And of course, the stupid cake. Think will most prob settle on Canele's Jupiter.

One f slice actually cost 8 bucks. GST NOT INCLUSIVE HOR! it's very pricey. But every cent is very worth it. It's very very very nice i tell you! AND THE PACKAGING of the cake is also very nice! Canale's marketing skills - power to the max! Houndstooth Carrier! So pretty!! I can't wait for my birthday!!!! 27 days from now!!! YAYNESS!

tmrw meeting the chee go town walk walk. SIAN LOR. no where to go. She wanna spend her vouchers. So good. i also want! VERY SIAN. go town with such low capital. CAN DIE. After which can meet X.S. Whole week work work work. Sian. Then i whole week, rot rot rot. JAL HAVENT EMAIL ME LEH. =( Till here! tata!

Pray*

XOXO

2008-11-11T08:46:00.000-08:00

Dear diary.

I'm here for an entry. Life totally is really not on the high side for me currently. Probably i'm a changed person now, as i can feel distants. Never as close as before, and always turned down. Did sth really sucky today. But i really didn;t do it on purpose. I think my memory seriously like sucked big time. i shall not learn to charge. which ever stuff i don't want, either i sell it to someone i don't know? else i give it to someone. When talking about money, it always urm.. how shall i put it. ("Jiang Qian Shang Gan Qin") and it's totally true to me. I made someone hate me or wouldn't even wanna talk to me anymore. I'm truly sorry for what i have said and all, i came to realise, i shouldnt have even charge. Like you like it? Take it. No such thing as: "I don't want them anymore, i sell you la?" That should be it. The feeling sucks. I love them. Love them more than anything. They have been dearest and closest. But somehow, not anymore. I feel, i'm losing them. I think it's because of who i am now. But, i don't know what i am now. Someone please wake me up. And being a jobless asshole. I was offered a job. Went for interview. The people were awfully nice and sweet. Rejecting them in anyway sucks. Cause they're really really nice people. I did not agreed thou, i just stated that i'm fine. Wasn't given a chance to even think about it, as the environment was something really special and far from me. I admit, i do not have a heart of gold. And i do not know how to reject and tell them how i really felt. I really wanted to try out. For this environment, seriously, the basic requirement would be: - heart filled with gold.
And i'm filled with trash. I'm afraid of them. I can't bring myself to do it. Therefore, i think, they need someone more reliable and to be able to commit well in this field. And i'm still left hanging. If i say ok, start and learn all sorts of things that they require me to, i think it would be a waste of their time. As i will leave within a short period of time. I do not have the courage to call someone up to "reject" them, i don't know why, but that's me. Therefore texted like a day before. I know, very last minute, very irresponsible. But i rather be an asshole, than to really pretend that i can take it and accept the offer and waste someone's time. And that someone's really sweet and nice. It's really really hard to reject nice people. Cause it makes you feel like an asshole. For this, i get it. I can sense it. But i'm really sorry for being such an asshole, as i have my reasons. Hope that someday, they can wake me up and understand. Is it just me or what? I really don't know. Scold me if you have to. Looking forward to the day we all meet.
I miss the past. I hate the present.

oh well. enough said. of those shitty stuff. kinda really looking forward to my brithday. thou with this sucky stituation i'm in now. i hope that everyone can be happy. i want to have a nice and yummy cake for everyone. I wan them to feel that, that's my way of thanking them. the taste of every single little particle of the cake. i'm still in the midst of searching for the perfect cake. heard from my aunt that there will be karaoke within the chalet itself. meaning, there's mikes and there's perfect sound system. hopefully there is! then we can have a great time. cocktail for that day would be t's fav malibu pineapple. was actually planning to make lychee martini. but stupidly. i bought martini for it, which supposedly, should be just vodka instead. WHATEVER. so ya, think malibu pineapple is better! it rocks! and was thinking of a dress code. which would most prob be strictly no black and white. =D i have so much to blog about out of the sudden. haha. and when i think of the bday i feel happier. cause it's not some typical 21st. i wanna make this a "thank you party" - everyone happy, i will be happy, i hope everyone will enjoy their night, with good food - courtesy of my "shui gu and shui kim" and drinks from my "sa gu". They are so nice. When i asked them if i should order pre-prepared bbq stuffs, my uncle was like, "aiyo, i settle for you la, order not nice one somemore so expensive." i offered help. he said" no need la, some times hor, more people doesn't mean more work done. which in the end would be more of less work done" so obvious. Asking me not to "yue bang yue mang!" My e-e, i actually weeped when i was talking to her about my birthday! she was so supportive of me having this party. like telling me where i can book, giving me suggestions, and i told her i have budget, she was like "don't worry about the money la, the main thing is everyone happy can already!" which indirectly, she will pay for the party la. but of course i hope that won't happen, i wish that it can be done within my ability. More sincere! No money then no party la!

JAL - Was really happy that i got their call for me being selected. Think would be out of 60(final interview) choose 20. And not to be too happy as that's not really the final round. I just went check up yesterday. And the doctor wasn't in a good mood. And was told that she'd think about it. I totally blanked out. When asked by my ah mm, what's my 21st wish, i was like, i can get in i happy liiao lor! NO MORE WISHES! Cause, it would be such a great experience! Get to learn KONICHIWA! and then get to gain so much valuable experience! i'm gonna miss my X.S. And then from there, i hope, i can earn, lots and lots of money, then can help the family abit, and I WANT MY DAD BACK HOME! I WANT HIM BACK. I can tell he's really happy for me being selected and all. Thou JAL not a very big deal, but i think to me, what matters, would be the very very very valuable experience i'll gain! WISH ME LUCK!

20 November. LUCK PLEASE.
Good Night!

XOXO

2008-10-10T11:50:00.000-07:00

hello there! create this out of boredom!